Dishonesty

  • Considering Divorce,  Dishonesty,  Infidelity,  Pornography Addiction,  Raising Children

    Six Years: Pornography & Cheating, Separation, and Finding Inner Strength by Anonymous

    I feel raw writing this, because it is unfolding very literally as I type the words. It is a story that one day I hope to share freely. But because I am parallel processing alongside this writing, I thought best to keep it anonymous for now. I have a marriage probably quite a bit like yours. And although I don’t need to tell you this, I will: I love my husband. I adore him. He has given me the world’s most beautiful children, and he has supported me in my dreams. He is kind and good to his core; he is generous, selfless, and willing to change. I have a…

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  • Anxiety and Panic,  Considering Divorce,  Dating,  Dishonesty,  Infidelity,  Mental Illness,  Therapy,  Trust Issues

    My Trauma Triggers || Recovering from Betrayal Trauma by Dani

    Josh and I headed to St. George last week for a wedding I shot down that way. Since we didn’t have the kids, we extended our trip so we could start out our year with a peaceful, relaxing week of pretty much doing nothing. We visited Zion National Park, Snow Canyon, ate some good food, spent time in the hot tub, watched a lot of movies, did some Yoga, and had great conversations in the car. I also had a panic attack. Panic attacks, while not as scary to me as they used to be, well, they suck. The first one I ever had was one of the scariest hours…

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  • Arguing,  Dishonesty,  Mental Illness,  Trust Issues

    Sink or Swim Part 2: Home of Anxiety & Depression by Anonymous

    Let’s set the mood: The wedding was over, the honeymoon was bliss, and real life set in. The first few months of marriage was great. W (my husband) and I found an apartment in a great location in Provo – and for all the married couples looking in Provo, you know that is no small feat! W was going to UVU while I finished my degree at BYU. As the fall semester ended and the Holidays approached, something changed. I felt myself becoming anxious for no perceived reason. I could feel something was wrong. I started to become the queen of nagging, picking apart W on the daily. At first…

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  • Arguing,  Church of Jesus Christ of LDS,  Dishonesty,  Eating Disorders,  Mental Illness,  Sexuality

    Finding Strength Part III: Faith Crisis, Sex Drought, Less Love, Suicidal Thoughts by Anonymous

    He belongs to a very large family and is one of 7 siblings. Unfortunately, he hasn’t felt close to any of them since his mother died when he was 13 years old. She fought a vicious battle with Melanoma that progressed to a point where she was left comatose and dying in their home until it took her life. He watched his mother die slowly. He witnessed her declining every day until she took her last breaths.           Shortly after his mother died, his father remarried, and the family moved two hours away. He had just lost his mother, a stranger was now living in his home and trying to control…

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  • Church of Jesus Christ of LDS,  Cultural Differences,  Dating,  Deciding to Marry,  Dishonesty,  Family Dynamics,  Financial Challenges,  Marrying Young

    Finding Strength Part II: Marrying Outside the Temple, My Spouse Doesn’t Know the Real Me

             While it’s not advice that I’d recommend to most, the truth is that running away from my problems worked. There were a few rough weeks as I scrambled around finding ways to survive. Luckily, I was hired on the spot after an interview at Vivint Smart Home. I started working in their customer service call center which helped me save up enough money to buy a car and a bed. A few weeks later I was able to buy a bedding set for that bed. From there, my life continued to fall into place.          Living in Utah, I quickly realized that I would have trouble fitting in if…

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